It's an ugly little house. Light blue painted wood siding with electric blue trim. The entire house would fit in the first floor of the house I live in now.
I'm leaving behind the granite countertops (I agonized over choosing the right color) and stainless steel appliances (top of the line, of course) and just signed a lease on this new, old place.
In less than a week, I will turn the key in the front door and call this little ugly place home. The first time I have lived alone in twelve years.
The first time in twelve years that I will be able to make my own decisions, and live freely and openly, without the guise of straight, white, suburban housewife.
Sometimes the little bitch called self-doubt chimes in with her two cents: You must be crazy to walk away--what are you doing??
...but then I think of that key, and I know I'm doing the right thing, even if it feels like severing a piece of my heart that I will never get back.
Suburbia never agreed with me anyway.
Big hug for you.
ReplyDeleteCourage is the power to let go of the familiar. ~Raymond Lindquist
Congrats!! You are letting go of a facade that is no longer serving you, no granite countertops in the world are worth that!!
ReplyDeleteYou are awesome!!!!! So proud of you!!!!! You ugly little house will feel like a castle with all the freedom that comes with it!!!!
ReplyDeleteAmazing.
ReplyDeleteGood for you to escape suburbia, too.
HUGS to you! Ugly house, that will be housing a beautiful soul within it, one that is growing and shining brightly!
ReplyDeleteYou can do this. I agree with onmyway - the "ugly" house only houses the beautiful inside. What a beautiful metaphor for life, don't you think?
ReplyDeleteI know it's scary, but I am so happy for you! This is such a huge step, it takes so much courage to do what you're doing. I hope that soon maybe I can take that step and find my own ugly, little house. :) Congrats, Sassy!
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